fortydaysofanything

one of my longest and best friends (11 years to date) sent me a link fortydaysdating.com
needless to say, i found myself trapped in this blog about two friends who decided to do a social experiment and date for forty days. I identified with Jessie. I saw mirrors of myself and similar actions in past relationships. often too accommodating, available, too candid, giving too much, complex, introvert, intuitive, enigma. naturally attracted to the extrovert. but only if i'm into someone. otherwise, i'm fleeting, dismissive, detached. i feel like my candor sprung from many voices telling me i was too guarded early in life. i wouldn't let anyone in. so i attempted this free spirit, speak your soul strategy, which of course is the epitome of vulnerability and we know what happens next. i'm now curious to try my own forty days of something and document it. i'm always here for experiments and new things.