forty days of gratitude

i found my forty days of something! woohoo. Forty days of gratitude. So, here's a start. I'm thankful for a place to call home. That's warm and cuddly with soft blankets. Amazing parents. A loving brother. My fantastic four who keep me uplifted and sane everyday. For a good job, as much as I throw tantrums in my head about having to be there. For the gems disguised as coworkers who've become my mentors and closest friends. For trials! I am stronger than yesterday *cues dance*.  For growth. Growing pains couldn't be more accurate. For mental peace. Good in, good out. I think I'm finally getting the hang of it. For good relationships with past loves. It makes life so much easier. #stressforwhat. And for God, for never giving up on me.

fortydaysofanything

one of my longest and best friends (11 years to date) sent me a link fortydaysdating.com
needless to say, i found myself trapped in this blog about two friends who decided to do a social experiment and date for forty days. I identified with Jessie. I saw mirrors of myself and similar actions in past relationships. often too accommodating, available, too candid, giving too much, complex, introvert, intuitive, enigma. naturally attracted to the extrovert. but only if i'm into someone. otherwise, i'm fleeting, dismissive, detached. i feel like my candor sprung from many voices telling me i was too guarded early in life. i wouldn't let anyone in. so i attempted this free spirit, speak your soul strategy, which of course is the epitome of vulnerability and we know what happens next. i'm now curious to try my own forty days of something and document it. i'm always here for experiments and new things.

hello my friend

sak pa se.  i wonder how you are sometimes. bonjour.